All posts for the month November, 2012

Need Another Week (as usual)

Published November 24, 2012 by mamapossum1954

Never fails! I’ve been doing this for 3 and a half years….every break, at first I can’t wait to go back to school. Then, 2 or 3 days before classes resume, I want another week….or another month…..And, also, never fails that I never accomplish what I want/plan to do over the break.

Still, we spent a lovely Thanksgiving with our family over in Poet’s Village: Lisa, Tyler, and Baby Girl (a.k.a. Randi Leigh). Jake, unfortunately, did not join us due to being indisposed (long story, that one, and I will not go into details on a public blog about that). All in all, we ate too much but had a good time. The walk over there was a pain, but the walk back (even with leftovers) seemed shorter and not quite as difficult.

Did some auto insurance quotes the last few days. State Farm. Safe Auto (due to extremely bad reviews, I will not be using this company, even though it’s cheaper). Tried to get a quote from AAA and William Mechling, but no response. So it looks like State Farm. Then I can get the truck transferred to Nathan – hopefully early next week – and then get it repaired.

Well, that’s it for now. Back to the grindstone tomorrow: laundry, packing the back pack, etc.



Published November 22, 2012 by mamapossum1954

It doesn’t seem like 2 days ago already. I was SO stressed the day Nathan took his 3rd driving test. And when he came home with his license….man, was I ever relieved! I mean, I could physically feel it!!!! So, he had a beer….and I asked him if I could have one; he said yeah. So I did. The first alcoholic drink I’d had since leaving Melbourne. To be honest, beer was a good call. I HATE the taste of it….so there was no problem with “craving more.”  Anyway, got a really good buzz off it…plus it relieved alot of the excess tension and adrenaline or whatever was still in my system.

Then I go to Walmart yesterday. The place was a mad house naturally. Everyone getting last minute stuff for Thanksgiving (or whatever). I picked up some dog food, groceries, and a phone card for my Tracfone. Well!

I was SO pissed off with Tracfone today. I added the 60 minutes on the website, like I normally do, and everything seemed to go okay. Then, today, there was still only 20 minutes on my phone. So I sent them an email. Waited. Some Asian lady (and, NO, I am NOT racist; she did have very good English) called on the Tracfone, which naturally dwindled my minutes. She said the minutes had been added. I checked after I hung up…STILL NO extra minutes. I waited. Then I sent them another email. And called the 1-888 number in the email. Talked to another Asian lady….more minutes gone. She said they needed to perform some sort of test and could I call back? I said, no, this is the only phone I’ve got….and by then I only had maybe 12 minutes left. I hung up.

Really angry and stressed by this stage.  So much so that it upset Marky, and consequently Nathan told me for upsetting Marky. So I calmed down abit. Then I sent Tracfone ANOTHER email…..this time a long, angry one! After quite awhile, this lady called me (another Asian…surprise, surprise). She told me to call from another phone so they could do the test or whatever. Now I’m down to 9 minutes 80 seconds. So I call from the Assurance phone (which usually has lousy reception…this time it didn’t) and they had me punch in codes & what not. 

Suffice it to say, they gave me double minutes and now I have 284 days left until I have to add more minutes. The last lady I spoke with (another Asian one….named Leslie…I told her what a good job she did & how she was really helpful) solved the problem within minutes.

Now I’ve had my shower and just waiting for Lisa or Tyler to call so we can go over there for Thanksgiving dinner. All in all, not a bad week. Plus I’m getting to that point, as usual, where I’ll want another week off before classes start back up.


Published November 20, 2012 by mamapossum1954

Finally!!! My son got his license!!!! Mind you, I was so thoroughly sick to my stomach, I thought I was going to pass out….or have a panic attack! So while he was gone, I went back & forth from the living room (where my computer is) to the kitchen….did dishes…had a break….stressed….mind going a mile a second….had about 2 or 3 puffs off a cigarette & put it out ‘cos I was too nervous/stressed to even smoke…..Then, when I was nearly done with the dishes (there were quite a few), he walks into the kitchen & I nearly hit the ceiling!! He hadn’t been gone that long, but a lot longer than the other 2 times. Had a serious look on his face….and just shook his head. Deep down, I guess I knew he was pulling my leg….maybe. So he shows me his temporary license.  I can’t tell you how relieved I was!!! Plus, I knew if he failed it again, he’d be devastated even more than the 2nd time. But….it’s all good now. I can call AAA to find out if he needs insurance for me to transfer the truck to him, get him insurance (if need be), transfer the truck, and get it repaired. Oh, and there’s the incentive, too, that we discussed earlier. We’ll wait & see how much the repairs run first. And, of course, there’s the other matter….of a promise I made to someone. We’ll see how that goes as well.  🙂

Sick to my stomach!

Published November 20, 2012 by mamapossum1954

Okay. I’ve tried to put it out of my mind. I’ve tried looking on the bright side. I’ve tried taking the approach of “What’s the worst that could happen?” (learned the last one from when I was in Gen Psych & had to see a counselor for extra credit…and it DID work when my minivan broke down) I am not, and probably never have been, an optimistic person. Pessimism is my middle name. (not to mention, procrastination and a few others I’m not going into right now).  Nathan’s third driving test is in a little while….and I so need him to pass it this time. I’ve spent tons of money already ($100 a pop for the driving school since we don’t have a vehicle he do the test in) and can’t afford another one after today. Of course, I’m trying to “let it go” and let whatever happens happen. It just isn’t that easy. Feeling thoroughly sick to my stomach….almost as if I was the one facing some sort of test or exam or oral presentation. Gee, I didn’t feel this nervous the first time I had sex!!! Anyway….whatever happens WILL happen. I just hope Nathan gets over his “whatever it is” with strangers and can do well this time. He aced the written test, and he knows how to drive well. It’s just the damn tester from the DMV!  I really should have forced him to “socialize” more when he was growing up. Now, he’s a loner and aloof & rarely ventures outside of his comfort zone.

More later……

Just thinking……

Published November 19, 2012 by mamapossum1954

Put a load of laundry in just now….how mundane is that??? When I’m not on campus, it seems that my life is just one great blob of boring acts. Oh, well, gives me time to think. Too much time perhaps. Like how Nate is taking his 3rd driving test tomorrow…..and how we really, really need him to get his license so I can transfer the truck over to him & get it repaired & inspected.  Or….like how ABSCUF has voted to authorize a strike statewide in PA, and how will that affect all the IUP students (including me)? And if they do strike, when will they? And will it affect my winter classes? Or spring classes? So I’m holding off getting any book for my winter classes right now until I know more. Or… like how I’m not sure if we’re going to Lisa’s for Thanksgiving this year because I haven’t heard from her…..yeah, I could call her, I guess. Right now, I am SO angry with her ex!! If he cared one bit about his kids, or about the mother of his children, he wouldn’t have taken the car from her…..but of course, he’s a self-absorbed, selfish, ignorant a**hole!!

I spend way too much time thinking. Yes, I could play card games on the computer (which I have been doing), or watching my t.v. shows on hulu (which I also have been doing)…or playing FarmTown (yes, you guessed it! I’ve been doing that, too).  But, seriously, it’s the important stuff that I shy away from thinking about, because my mind just gets stuck on the spin cycle and never reaches any conclusions. Of course, if I could clone myself, it would be a moot point. But science hasn’t quite figured out how to do that just yet (at least, not a full grown ready made clone anyway); plus it’d be way too expensive.

Part of me (the part that hates crowds and hates the fast pace) would just like to have a small place to live out in a small town somewhere (NOT in PA). Maybe some place where there are lots of wolves or a wolf sanctuary or something. Of course, there probably wouldn’t be much call for social workers in a small place like that, so my college career would be all for nought (naught).

Then there’s another part of me that would really LOVE to go back to Melbourne. Yes, I hated the extreme heat….at times. And I know the place has probably changed alot since 2003. But I did love it there. And I miss Kim. And vegemite.

And, of course, then there’s the rational, boring, conservative part of me….that just wants to be safe and not venture outside my comfort zone. But even going to grad school (IF I decide to that and IF I am lucky enough to get in) would take me out of my comfort zone because there are no schools here that offer an MSW.

And, lastly, there’s the part of me that wants to move down to Florida with my son and Lisa and her kids. That’s IF either one of us gets to the point where all the i’s are dotted and the t’s crossed and we can afford it.

Well….I guess I’m destined to continue floundering when it comes to making decisions. And then I end up usually making the wrong ones. NOT that moving to Oz was a wrong decision, mind you. It was right at the time, and I don’t regret (most of it).

Murphy’s Law….yes, there IS a t.v. show with that name, though it’s made in the UK. Seriously, tho, Murphy is….an enigma. I haven’t had a real best friend that I could totally be myself with in such a long time. Even those people that I was close with at times (and still care about) and still consider best friends, well, I’ve had to wear a mask at times….and monitor what I say and how I say it; not to mention, tone down my actions. I truly hate playing a “role”!! With Murphy, I can be myself. Be totally outrageous, or even say stupid things. My very first best friend was Larry, in grade school. And, yes, technically, Murphy is a guy….who is young enough to be my son. But he is so much more than that. I feel privileged that he shared himself (or herself) the way he did. Guess I should stop saying “he”. If Murphy were ever to read this, I would hate to offend him (her). But Murphy has no idea how bright of a personality she has. As if it’s wrapped around her like a wooly cloak, or perhaps feathers which spread out all around her. The vibrations…..WOW! The just seem to flow out of her! Well, not sure which part of Murphy it’s coming from, but that’s the part that makes me smile and makes my day brighter, even when I’m feeling as low as I can possibly get. Almost as addictive as caffeine to me!

Enough for now. I’ve got to go do something mundane….like make a coffee, or check on the laundry. See you later, peeps!

Just An Update

Published November 19, 2012 by mamapossum1954

Off to town to catch the Green to go to Martin’s for a few things. Here it is Monday the 19th; back to school next week. Yeah, I was ready to go back to classes last Friday. By the time Sunday rolls around, it’ll be “I wish we had another week off!” Guess I’m never satisfied…..


Published November 17, 2012 by mamapossum1954

It’s been awhile since I last wrote anything here….not sure why. Perhaps procrastination, or laziness, or lack of time….too much college work. Yeah, right. I start things but never finish them, it seems. Anyway, I recently made a new friend – Murphy – and I guess that’s the reason why I’m writing here again. I don’t know that I’ll have that much to say, or even if any of it will be important. But at least I’m making the attempt.

Murphy has inspired me, to be honest. Such a complex, intense, outrageous, caring, honest, empathic, humorous person. Whenever I see Murphy, it brightens my entire day. Even on those days when I’m pissed off, or my back is giving me severe problems, everything seems so much easier. Don’t get me wrong now. This is NOT an intimate relationship….far from it. Nor would it be. Murphy is more than half my age! But we seem to connect on some many levels, at times it’s almost as if, well, I’m not sure. Haven’t quite figured it out yet. Knowing me, I’ll no doubt analyze it until an answer comes to mind. Or maybe not. It’s not important anyway.

Just wanted to write this down so I didn’t forget it. I’ll be writing more later. I really think I need to do this…..for whatever reason. No one will probably read it, and I’m not sure that I’d want anyone to. But there you go. Nearly a college graduate; on the slippery slope to 60 (58 next month); still feeling like a young adult, at least mentally and emotionally. What the hell???