All posts for the month December, 2012

LAST DAY OF 2012….

Published December 31, 2012 by mamapossum1954

Since it’s the last day of 2012, I suppose I should write something.  Not much has happened since Christmas. Nathan & I were supposed to go over to Lisa’s place that day, but I was still feeling so sick and worn out and, with the truck still not running, just couldn’t face the long walk both ways. So we stayed home; had a meal – I don’t recall if it was rice and vegetables or mashed potatoes, stuffing and vegetables.

Anyway, it’s been a quiet week. Traded emails with Murphy.  Haven’t really talked to anyone. Went to Walmart on the bus a few times. Was going to take the bus there on Saturday, but Bob my neighbor pulled in and drove me there and back. A very nice thing for him to do.

So….today is the end of 2012….I won’t bother making any New Year’s Resolutions — they never end up being attained anyway.  I have, however, made up a list of the internship sites in Indiana that I’m going to send letters & resumes to. One in particular was apparently implemented from research by one of my professors, Dr. Bonach. I sent her an email today asking for more info but she’s away (from the computer?) until Jan. 28th, so…

Anyway, things haven’t been doing very well lately. I’ve been taking my meds (even tho I won’t be able to afford to go to a doctor to get a refill prescription when they’re gone) but they don’t seem to be working. I can feel the extreme tension and stress as I used to in Australia when I was first diagnosed with my panic disorder. The antidepressants should be working; they’ve worked since 2003! Well, I don’t know right now. Trying not to worry about it.

Still haven’t received an email with syllabus from my Hum. Lit. professor, even tho he said he would be sending one out this week…well, LAST week at any rate.

So….plans for 2013? Try to manage all my courses and end up with a really good grade in all of them. Organize my internship placement (which means also contacting financial aid to make sure they will fund it). Clean up the apartment.  Throw out clutter.  Get the truck repaired and inspected.  Anything else?? Who knows!

And how will I be celebrating the coming of the new year?  Much the same as always: going to bed early. Been doing that since we first went without tv. Plus the fact that I have no social life whatsoever – hence, nowhere to go and no one to go with and no money to go anywhere even if I wanted to!!

So that’s it for December 31, 2012.


Christmas Eve 2012

Published December 25, 2012 by mamapossum1954

Here it is another year.  Once again we haven’t put up the Christmas tree….haven’t really put it up since we got Marky. Plus there’s usually nothing to put under the tree anyway. This year is no different. Sucks that I couldn’t afford to get the truck fixed yet!! And we’re still not sure about what we’re doing tomorrow. Haven’t really talked to Murphy for a few days, except to exchange some short emails. Not enough really.  I am so bored that I could scream right now!!! Nothing really on Hulu. I do have some Spanish movies in my queue but can’t hear well enough yet so won’t bother. And I still can’t get over my final grades!!! The “C” in Foundations totally sucks since I know I could’ve done better had I done the agency interviews and the paper….but that’s my own fault (well, plus the fact that I got sick). Still, my GPA is still over 3.0 so I’m not going to complain too much. I really hope to do alot (and I do MEAN “alot”) better during the spring semester. Oh, and I’ve got Humanities Lit during January online, so……

Walmart = Madhouse

Published December 23, 2012 by mamapossum1954

Remind me again why I had to go to Walmart today???? Oh, yeah, no buses running on Monday & Tuesday, so no access to shopping. Well, not only was it trying to snow, and windy, and freezing, the sidewalks in town (not to mention here at the apt. complex) were slick. And Walmart itself? The less said, the better. So many friggin people, clogging up every single aisle….That wouldn’t be so bad…..It was the fact that the majority of people seemed to be just “browsing” — as if they had all the time in the world, as if there weren’t any other people in the aisles who just wanted to get their items & get the heck out of there!!!  Picture a bottleneck, a really bad traffic jam on the freeways of Los Angeles…..that was Walmart in Indiana, PA today!!

Melbourne is having summer right now!

Published December 22, 2012 by mamapossum1954

I realize the passing of the seasons is inevitable, and that PA gets snow, wind, and cold during its winter. Yes, I did return to the USA in 2003 because I was homesick (and also missed the snow). But perhaps I’m just getting too old to cope with the extreme temperatures. At least they’ve been extreme for me of late. During the winter, I can never seem to get warm.

Today I’ve got to venture out to Walmart….yet again….for supplies. There are no buses running on Monday and Tuesday (Dec. 24th and 25th), so we can’t afford to go without dog food. Probably need a few other things as well. I just really, truly do NOT want to go out!

Our thermostat is set at 71 degrees yet it’s only showing 66! When I’m still chilly while wearing jeans, socks, t-shirt, thick hoodie AND a fluffy long robe, there’s got to be a problem!!!

Hurray for Winter???

Published December 21, 2012 by mamapossum1954

Guess winter has finally arrived in Indiana, PA today.  Not that I’m liking it very much — except for the fact that at least it’s not raining.  Had to go out today…rode the Blue to town to go to the bank to deposit my b.d. gift from Barb, then took the Green to Walmart to get a few items.  It was snowing and windy….the Blue was late….all the buses were late, in fact. And waiting for the Blue at Walmart was the pits since it’d gotten alot colder and windier.  Found out when I got home that Murphy was working (probably still is).  Actually looking for a pattern book at walmart for socks. Can’t believe that.

“Murphy’s Law” (NOT Murphy) Strikes Again!!!

Published December 20, 2012 by mamapossum1954

Just when I think things are going well…….”M.L.” pulls the rug right out from under me!!!!!!!!!! If I knew how to type a ‘scream’, I would do that. Unfortunately, I don’t. Of course, no one reads this f***ing blog anyway……but it gives me an outlet.

Woke up at 4::30 am (it’s now 6:26)…..dug out some cigarette butts to smoke (yeah, I know, I’ve got a MAJOR problem)….had a cup of coffee….played around on the computer…then, since I was supposed to have the truck towed to IF&A today for a quote & repair, thought it best to balance my checkbook against the online statement.  BIG MISTAKE!!! Well, not really. Just shows how totally inept, useless, hopeless I am.

Thing is (and it’s a good thing I didn’t give Marcia that $120 she was hassling me for) if I have the truck towed and repaired, I have to pay them. IF it only costs what they quoted me last time (which is highly unlikely), that will leave me with approximately $50 cash until I get my financial aid refund….which won’t be until the 3rd of February.

So I can’t pay the internet, can’t pay the rent, can’t pay the electricity…..can’t afford to let the internet go since I’ve got an online class in January….can’t let the rent go since they’ll evict us. OK, so the internet is $30 (but I probably owe $60 now). The rent is due Jan. 1st and that’s $33. The electricity, well, I owe them $35 at the moment.

Problem is, we need the damn truck running!  And this is going to cause a MEGA argument with Nathan. He doesn’t seem to realize that we have NO money coming in whatsoever. And that we’re depending solely on my financial aid. Not to mention the expenses for him (little things and not often, but they do add up). And of course there was the $300 or $400 I spent on the driving school in order to get his license. I don’t blame him for not passing the first 2 times…it happens.

It’s just me, I guess. Nothing like “M.L.” to make me feel like the total fucked up failure that I always knew I was. Hell, I was told that often enough over the years. Get told something often enough, you end up believing it’s the truth. Oh, well, time for a coffee. Looks like I’m going to take the early bus to Walmart (get the food….well, everything except the warm bread Nathan wants)….and a pack of cigs (which I know I can’t afford….but right now the stress is driving me nuts).


Published December 19, 2012 by mamapossum1954

Went to the doctor/clinic yesterday with Murphy. The weather was crappy — cold, rainy, windy. We had to catch the Blue to the Transit Center, then the Green to the clinic (& naturally Carl was driving!! AND asked about the darn pie again). I’m not sure how long we were in the clinic….the nurse was nice, the doctor was so-so…then he had them do an instant chest x-ray (& of course mentioned my smoking…..but I DO have bronchitis like I thought). He wrote me 3 prescriptions. I had to spend $40 for the x-ray as it wasn’t included in the clinic cost.

After the clinic, we caught the Green to “Fire Mountain” to try out the new Chinese buffet that opened this week. The food was pretty good, and Carl & his wife and son showed up for a meal as well. Then we stopped at the liquor store (Murphy wanted to get something) & I found out that my neighbor Nate works there (didn’t recognize him since he cut his hair & shaved off his “cave man” beard). Then we took the Green back to town and then to Walmart; got my prescriptions & picked up a couple of items.

All in all, it was a very enjoyable afternoon. When I got home, I found out that Dr. Hysock had replied to my email…..and I actually did pass Foundations, with a “C”, she said I literally “squeaked” by with a “C”. Still, it’s more than I hoped for. Now I have to worry about Science!!!!

I’m now on Day 2 of my meds….no change yet, since it’s really only about half a day since I started them. Hopefully my ears will clear up (Dr. said I had fluid in there…..duh!) soon. I hate not being able to hearing properly.