This so totally sucks!!!! I’ve had “anxiety” attacks since coming back tot he USA, but was fine once my family doctor put me on the antidepressants. Then, of course, I lost my Medicaid (because the CAO, and the government, in their infinite wisdom said I was making too much on unemployment!….apparently, according to them, my son and I were only allowed to make up to $150 per month for me to qualify for medicaid….who the hell can live on that?????). It wasn’t until the break up of my friendship with Leanne a few semesters ago that things came to a head and erupted. I’d been off my meds for maybe over a year….Fortunately, Marcia took me to the clinic (which is no longer there next to Starbucks) and I paid to see a doctor to get a prescription. That worked out well because I had repeats and when they ran out, the doctor would just call in another one to walmart. Well, then the owner/doctor retired & closed his practice, didn’t he???
I don’t have medicaid, but I do have I-Care through the hospital, which does NOT cover getting prescriptions whenever I run out. I’d have to apply for the WeCare program. But – in order to do that, I’ve got to apply for medicaid (again) and gets turned down and take the denial letter to WeCare. Which all takes time, of course. And I don’t know how Nathan’s wages will affect my eligibility for that.
But last night/early this morning, I was so tense and anxious and having what I recall as a panic attack…..Then, I just had another one. Of course, taking Benadryl doesn’t really work. I don’t know whether taking one of those would aggravate the problem. I do know, however, that I do NOT want to go back to how I was with the panic attacks all the time. And it isn’t a case of just “calming down” or taking slow, deep breaths or doing relaxation exercises. If I could DO relaxation exercises, I wouldn’t be tense, would I??? So here I sit caught between a rock and a hard place and a deep chasm in the middle with a very small ledge to stand on. I hate it!!!!!